it's just a really hard month

Saturday 29th August 2009

It's a pretty hard month for me,a really really hard month.But it's not that bad too anyway I lost someone that was my love and now his gone.But it's not that hard to lettinng him go,and life goes on so do my life has to move on.
I moved on.I feel useless when i have to cry for like a week just for something i think it's not too worth it to cry on.For some reason loosing you is a bad thing but in a many other reason loosing you is just one simple phase of my life that i have to deal with.Not so special,but a little hurt.
And just so you know,for a lot of times we spent our moment together good and bad but too bad we were trying so hard to be somthing called 'perfect'but none of us are perfect.And i cant be perfect for you and so did you.And just incase you dont mind,I dont want you to feel like you are the most hero person for me.But if you dissepointed in me,then what kind of word that i can describe for you?
I felt dissepointed by you for many times and i dont want to tell you.That's honesty.
I dont want to judge any of your kindness or badness but what i felt so much was that many dissepontment.
We were repeating our special moment for several times and we were happy but we never ended it smoothly because non of them are mature enough to get to the other side of our relithionship.
so that's it,i'm sorry for everything :)